Thank You all for the prayers the support is greatly appreciated.

Toni was removed from the ventilator at 10:40am Tuesday and continued to breath on her own all tubes and IV's were removed. She continued to breath and rest at times she even snored. At 4pm I spoke with her daughter and at around 4:15 Toni very quickly passed from this world into the next. Her death was dignified and she did not suffer.

Melissa

The past few days have sucked enormous donkey dick. I received a call from my mom on Wednesday that a good friend of mine was in the hospital for surgery to remove a mass on her ovary and when the Dr opened her up they found cancer everywhere. I have not seen my friend Toni in awhile but have talked to her on the phone the last time being in the beginning of Feb and she said nothing to me about being sick….not a damn word except that she had lost a bunch of weight and was really busy with her restaurant but not a damn word about not feeling good.


It seems from the conversations I have had with her daughters she did not say much to them either.

The sad thing is she is dying and right now is in the hospital strapped to a bed on a ventilator fighting to recover enough from surgery to only be told she is dying…..this is tearing me apart. The docs have told her children that they are surprised that she has lasted this long…..the docs do not know her very well she is stubborn and has the soul of a gladiator. I am sad that she did not take care of herself the way she takes care of everyone else. Sometimes you have to put yourself first she has never learned that.


Toni is one of those people that either you love her or you want to beat her we had the perfect love/hate relationship. I worked with her for 2 years and I swear the first 6 months she would have loved to kick my ass because I am such a smart ass. I got my ass chewed many a time for being a “asshole” as she likes to call me. I used to tell her I was gonna take her down and she would just give this look that would make me feel a bit guilty but also make me say something else that was equally politically incorrect. She has some back problems and used to say Oh I am dying from the pain and I would tell her no way woman only the good die young. I have great memories of her. I will be honest I think she could read me like a book, the first time I cried in front of her she laughed at me and told me to stop faking cause my cold hearted ass did not have tears to spare. I love that about her the no holds barred honesty and I am a cold hearted bitch tears are not my thing at all.

Sitting with her family at the hospital yesterday someone made a comment about her being a bitch and I more than likely stuck my size 8 right in my mouth by responding “Well that is who she is” in all honesty she is. She will tell you to Fuck off like she was saying its going to rain today. There is not a damn mean bone in her body and that makes her bitchy-ness a good quality. I have a lot of respect for her and the way she choose to live her life by her standards and fuck you all if you had a problem with it.

Please do me a favor and say a prayer for her daughters, grandkids and all the other people that love her. They could use all the help talking to the man upstairs and I will also ask that you pray for Toni to pass from this world to the next pain free and knowing she is loved.

Love,
Melissa

My baby sis

I am gonna pimp my baby sis tonight and share her video.....This is her video from the Sturgis Bike Rally. She is a Jagger model and has been for 2 years. This job is fun but is also very intense and requires someone with a strong knowledge of there self. Here is Jamie with her friends and with her good friend Keith.

In August she was the unfortunate person who Shaun Morgan's brother Eugene commited suicide in front of. These are some of the last pictures of Eugene from the night he died. For those of you who do not know Shaun Morgan is the front man of the amazing rock band Seether. It was a devastating event that she will never forget and it has changed her I think part of her healing is making this video and actually going through the pictures from that night. I wanted to share it with you all.

The dreaded stomach flu hit our house hard on monday with Lil coming home from school at 11 and 10 mins after I walked in the door from work the boy was blowing chunks like it was a contest to see how far they would shoot. Nasty!!

Quite funny the scene of the first round of projectile vomiting was I must share with you all.

Hubby and I were having a chat in the doorway of our bedroom when the girls started screaming "Oh my GOD he is puking....mom....mom....he is blowing chunks....but he is still sleeping" Yes thats right baby boy was losing lunch in his sleep.

Hubby and I come running wondering what the fucking hell was going on. We come upon a scene that was gory as hell (Hubby fed the kids spaghetti and meat balls about an hour prior) so use your imagination.

Hubby instantly starts gagging and I grab the blanket covering the boy to catch the puke in but not before it was everywhere. The first words out of my mouth were "SHIT he defiled the chair" because yes he was sick and of course I felt bad but he puked all over and inside our BRAND NEW MICROSUEDE RECLINER that chair cost me 600 bucks.

During the clean up Hubby walks past and says "Hey make sure you get all the noodles" then went and locked himself in the bedroom for the rest of the night.

This is a post copied and pasted from http://www.momknowseverything.com/ please pass it on to your friends and family with children who are using the internet. Myspace is only one place where predators find children there are numerous game sites, message boards and other online communities that children frequent let this be a reminder that keeping kids safe is a job we all should take seriously.

MYSPACE WARNING
MYSPACE: A Must Read for All who have children or grandchildrenEVERYONE NEEDS TO READ ALL OF THIS and HAVE YOUR
CHILDREN READ IT TOO!


After tossing her books on the sofa, she decidedto grab a snack and get on-line. She logged on under her screen nameByAngel213. She checked her Buddy List and saw GoTo123 was on. She senthim an instant message:


ByAngel213:Hi. I'm glad you are on! I thought someone wasfollowing me home today. It was really weird!

GoTo123:LOL You watch too much TV.
Why would someone be following you?Don't you live in a safe neighborhood?

ByAngel213:Of course I do. LOL I guess it was myimagination cuz' I didn't see anybody when I looked out.

GoTo123:Unless you gave your name out on-line. Youhaven't done that have you?

ByAngel213:Of course not. I'm not stupid you know.

GoTo123:Did you have a softball game after school today?

ByAngel213:Yes and we won!!GoTo123:That's great! Who did you play?

ByAngel213:We played the Hornets. LOL. Their uniforms areso gross! They look like bees.

LOLGoTo123:What is your team called?

ByAngel213:We are the Canton Cats. We have tiger paws onour uniforms. They are really cool.

GoTo1 23:Did you pitch?

ByAngel213:No I play second base. I got to go. My homeworkhas to be done before my parents get home. I don't want them mad at me.
Bye!

GoTo123:Catch you later. Bye

Meanwhile.......GoTo123 went to the member menuand began to search for her profile. When it came up, he highlighted itand printed it out. He took out a pen and began to write down what heknew about Angel so far.

Her name: ShannonBirthday: Jan. 3, 1985Age: 13State where she lived: North CarolinaHobbies: softball, chorus, skating and going tothe mall. Besides this information, he knew she lived in Canton becauseshe had just told him. He knew she stayed by herself until 6:30 p.m.
every afternoon until her parents came home from work.

He knew sheplayed softball on Thursday afternoons on the school team, and the teamwas named the Canton Cats. Her favorite number 7 was printed on herjersey. He knew she was in the eighth grade at the Canton Junior HighSchool.

She had told him all this in the conversations they had on-line. He had enough information to find her now.

Shannon didn't tell her parents about theincident on the way home from the ballpark that day. She didn't wantthem to make a scene and stop her from walking home from the softballgames. Parents were always overreacting and hers were the worst.

It made her wish she was not an only child. Maybe if she had brothers andsisters, her parents wouldn't be so overprotective.

By Thursday, Shannon had forgotten about thefootsteps following her.Her game was in full swing when suddenly shefelt someone staring at her. It was then that the memory came back. She glanced up from her second base position to see a man watching herclosely.He was leaning against the fence behind firstbase and he smiled when she looked at him. He didn't look scary and shequickly dismissed the sudden fear she had felt.After the game, he sat on a bleacher while shetalked to the coach. She noticed his smile once again as she walked pasthim. He nodded and she smiled back. He noticed her name on the back ofher shirt. He knew he had found her.

Quietly, he walked a safe distance behind her.It was only a few blocks to Shannon's home, and once he saw where shelived he quickly returned to the park to get his car.Now he had to wait. He decided to get a bite to eat until the time came to go to Shannon's house. He drove to a fastfood restaurant and sat there until time to make his move.

Shannon was in her room later that evening when she heard voices in the living room."Shannon, come here," her father called. Hesounded upset and she couldn't imagine why. She went into the room tosee the man from the ballpark sitting on the sofa."Sit down," her father began, "this man has justtold us a most interesting story about you."Shannon sat back. How could he tell her parentsanything? She had never seen him before today!

"Do you know who I am, Shannon?" the man asked."No," Shannon answered."I am a police officer and your online friend,GoTo123."Shannon was stunned. "That's impossible! GoTo isa kid my age! He's 14. And he lives in Michigan!"The man smiled. "I know I told you all that, butit wasn't true. You see, Shannon, there are people on-line who pretendto be kids; I was one of them. But while others do it to injure kids andhurt them, I belong to a group of parents who do it to protect kids frompredators. I came here to find you to teach you how dangerous it is to talk to people on-line.

You told me enough about yourself to make iteasy for me to find you. You named the school you went to, the name ofyour ball team and the position you played. The number and name on yourjersey just made finding you a breeze."Shannon was stunned. "You mean you don't live inMichigan?"He laughed. "No, I live in Raleigh.

It made youfeel safe to think I was so far away, didn't it?"She nodded."I had a friend whose daughter was like you.Only she wasn't as lucky. The guy found her and murdered her while shewas home alone Kids are taught not to tell anyone when they are alone,yet they do it all the time on-line. The wrong people trick you intogiving out information a little here and there on-line. Before you knowit, you have told them enough for them to find you without evenrealizing you have done it. I hope you've learned a lesson from this andwon't do it again. Tell others about this so they will be safe too?""It's a promise!"

That night Shannon and her Dad and Mom all kneltdown together and thanked God for protecting Shannon from what could havebeen a tragic situation.

Tickle me purple and call me a pansy.....

Just wasting time today I am finally off for 2 days and I am not doing a damn thing and it is wonderful.....

What Kind of Valentine Are You?

My Result: a Cynical Valentine

Cupid? Arrows? Please. Good thing you're not the one taking aim. This time of year, you'd manage to shoot down just about anyone's hopes. You're probably the one who makes jokes about "VD." Your heart is cold and you wouldn't have it any other way.

What are you?
http://web.tickle.com/rd/50651/tests/kindofvalentine/index.jsp?testname=kindofvalentineogt&resultid=B

Blogger was being a bitch earlier and would not let me log in it gave me the "cookies" disabled warning well let me tell you this Blogger me and my computer are on a fucking diet and we do not want your stinkin cookies. Get that? I have a major problem with sugar with out you trying to push cookies off on me...have a little respect for us fat asses we need no help piling on the calories.

In other news it is Ash Wensday and I am sitting here in my scrubs trying to decide if I will do my Catholic duty and go get the ash rubbed on my head or be unholy and just drop my kids at the door for religion classes.....hmmm....I am really struggling with this I have not been to confession since hmmm....never...so does it really matter if I go? Can you imagine with all the F bombs I drop the number of Hail Marys I would get?

To many to even count.

Drum Roll Please...........

Well all my lovely blogger friends it is time for the

First Annual

I think you all rock awards

(awards ceremony will last from Feb 5th until Feb 29 so keep checking back:)

The best thing about blogging is meeting new people and getting a peek into their lives. I have a blog roll of people that I TRY and read daily because they touch a part of me

(no not that way perv)

There are some people that I read that I think I would actually be friends with...scary huh?

I do need to update that also there have been some new additions to my favorites including a Southern Girl who is spending her spare time snowboarding in CO...um I am a bit jealous.

Anyways here are the awards:)

This award goes to Sterling Girl & Lizarita....you girls saved a little face by blogging this week but you 2 are the ones I have to check on every couple of days cause you lazy:) Thats ok because then I do not get to far behind. BTW Liz you have another one coming for the 2 Pink Lines Story stay tuned.

This next one is for Blue Bella Babe for being real and telling it like it is no gloves on. She is also super sweet and funny as hell.

This is a little prayer for all my bloggy friends....love you all:)

Told you I would be back!!

Kids enjoying the tail gate fare of hotdogs, beans & chips
Me and the hubby he is so cute:)
Whew these are the ugly tree pictures damn I am looking like I am all gums.....pass me my dentures sonny....
I am number ONE!!!

Earlier today Blogger was being a whore and would not upload my pictures....lets hope it works this time.



I will promise you I am cute in real life these pictures make me look like I fell out of the ugly tree and hit every branch on the way down.

Missing me yet?

So yes I have been a lazy blogger once again what can I say I got a bit of a life and I am freaking tired. I swear I must have seasonal affective disorder I am suffering from the super blahs.

I did however manage to drag Jenny off the couch and tempt her with food to come watch the Super Bowl last night with me. That was fun we grilled in the snow drank beer and hooted and hollered at all the appropriate times. It was a good game still a little bummed about the Patriots loss but will get over it.

Here are some pictures from last night.....disclaimer the deal was a PJ party and no showers or makeup were allowed.....we look fucking rugged....in a bad way.

My husband is a lucky bastard he always looks damn good....asshole. Well lets just say Jenny and I had a few to many to look good and we laughed so hard I thought I would cry.

Operation: Drunk Tomfoolery is in effect and that means that we are going to Ireland next year during this time for 2 weeks pretty fucking excited about that we are gonna do a day in Amesterdam for a layover....more later on that. Blogger will not load my pictures I have to do a cyber ass kicking be back later.