Explanation.

Let's chat about how shitty my day was yesterday. I am going to do a little soul baring if you cannot take it please come back another day.

I am one of those women that is pretty strong and always there for my family and friends the one huge weakness I have is my husband. He has the ability to make me go fucking crazy in 3.2 seconds. My biggest fear is him messing around on me. This summer we almost ended up getting a divorce and during the 6 months of us flirting with the idea of not being together there were a few things that happened that neither of us are proud about.

Fast forward to now we are in the rebuilding stage and bridges are partially rebuilt (think popsicle sticks here) I look at his phone Wensday night and find a number for a girl that he told me he wanted to date this summer. I instantly get upset sick to my stomach and pissed but I play it off because I should not have looked at his phone. But me being me there was no FUCKING way I was not going to say anything to him.

I held it in and acted sorta normal yesterday before he went to work but obviously not enough cause he left and about half hour later he called to see what was up because he knew I was upset and I straight up told him either he figures out why the fuck he felt he needed the number (just put in his phone monday) or we are done I am not playing the fence sitting game with him. Just not gonna do it. I also told him I was hurt and pissed that he had so little faith in our marriage that he needed to have a back up. He swears he had never called her but I am not so sure I believe him. He gets really jealous about stuff it makes me wonder if I am getting the whole truth.

I love the dumb fucker so it makes it hard for me to just kick his ass out and deal with his shit in my own time. We also just went and closed on our new house today at noon so I am double confused and double pissed. I asked him if being with me is what he wants and he swears I am his world and he would never hurt me but I do not know. I am super pissed that he has made me so insecure that I have to dig through his cell phone because I do not trust him further than I can see him.

I am a fucking paranoid mess and I have no one to blame but myself.


Thanks for the support girls and Tammy I have added you to my IM.

devastated

Some times you just don't understand why you should even bother today is one of those days.

I am pooped it had been a weekend that is fo sure.

Lovely little scam my husband and his father pulled on me Easter Sun. I was fully aware that we would be spending Easter with my sexy hubby's dad because of the divorce. No problemo what I was not fully aware of was that I would be cooking the entire meal at his dads house.

The kids and I arrived at 1 to hang out and put toghether the last minute food stuff for dinner at 6 not a big deal what was a big deal was sexy hubby's dad bought 2 Farmland Hams and they were sitting in the fridge still in the packages. OH NO FUCKING WAY....I thought to myself.

I poked through the cupboards and decided a trip to the store was needed so I packed up a kid and off we went. First thing after pulling out of the driveway I called hubby and chewed his ass for their dirty trickery. Second I went and bought a real ham ya know the picnic ones with the bone in.....not the pressed ham product Papa Bear had bought.

Then I went back and put together a fabulous dinner Ham, red garlic mashed potaotes, sweet potatoes, green bean casserole, buns and a black and white bundt cake. Can you say I am fucking fabulous? I can.....

Happy Easter!!

A little funny for the day.

I am off to the Dr and out for a meeting at work, I am leaving you with some funnies for the day. Thank you to all my bloggy buddies that have volunteered for duty while I move if anyone else is interested let me know. I am excited to see what you all have to bring to the table for posts.

Easter Humor

Help a girl out here???

Ok kids I am in need of some assistance....LOL

I have been busy as hell lately and am going to be busier while we get ready to move so I have an idea. I want to invite some of you to be guest bloggers here at Melissa's corner!!!

Sounds exciting huh? I need help and you can do some shameless whoring of your own site sounds like a perfect trade. Almost like blog prostitution...and we all know we all are fans of prostitution:)

So Southern in the Rockies, Bluebella, Slick, Busy Dad, Chelle, Tammy.....anyone?? You interested?

Jana I know you are busy with Lovey but if you have time you are sure invited:)

It is one of those days

All weekend long I looked forward to having today off. I was gonna sleep in and have the hubby take the kids to school and daycare while I enjoyed being a kept woman for one day. I woke up at 7:30 and woke Lil up to shower and took a peek at my cell to check the time and saw I had 2 missed calls from work.

I was gonna ignore them and go back to bed but something inside my head said I better check and see what they wanted so I listened to the messages and relised I did not have the day off and I was over an hour late for work.

I then looked out the window and saw that Mother Nature dumped 8 inches of pretty powder last night. Oh for Fucks sake..,...It is Monday....I HATE mondays.

So instead of me sleeping in I quick jumped in the shower with Lil and got ready, fed the kids breakfast, drove them all to school and daycare then commuted 30 miles to work on shit ass roads while hubby laid in bed like a kept man.

It is Monday and it sucks!! My next day off is Sunday then back to work on Monday til the next Sunday.

It is Monday and I am thinking it sucks huge donkey dick but I did get a 50 cent raise even though I was 2 1/2 hours late for work:0

My husband is a dirty bastard tonight. Our children have pushed every button of annoyance I have and I am ready to blow a gasket. He however is sitting at his dads 4 blocks away from our new house drinking beer and bullshitting. I have packed a ton of shit this weekend cause you know I work a shit ton the next few weeks and he spent sat out at the shop hanging out with his buddies drinking beer. Are you seeing the pattern here?

I should be out with my oldest friend drinking vino and celebrating her birthday but nope I am here with the devils spawn. Not fair!!!

But I guess after children mommas lose the fun parts of life and miss friends birthdays.

I call Bullshit on that.

I am still here just have been really busy with work, kids and numerous other mundane life shit. I also have to kick my 9 y/o off my laptop to blog and she is all over it like flies on shit. Pretty bad when your kid steals your toys:)

I do have some news. I know most of my readers know we had a major house fire last May and we have been trying to get our house back to normal but it is just not happening and we have used 70,000 of insurance money and all of our savings to try and fix things but it is just not working out. We finally made the choice to sell our home back to the bank and let them deal with the rest of the bull shit. So that means we are moving the 2nd weekend in April.

After much discussion and looking at houses we have decided to buy a new house and I mean a NEW house. The contractors were just finishing up the outside masonary work when we looked at it the first time a month ago. We were a little leary about moving back to the city but it is time to do it. Gas prices are a fucking killer and I commute each day almost 60 miles in a Explorer so you know I get bent over and poked with out the lube each time at the pump. But that is a whole other post...FUCK YOU oil prices.....

I will be leaving our quiet little town of 4000 and moving back to a place that has fast food and entertainment on every corner I cannot fucking wait.

This is the new house the pictures are from the real estate listing not the best but you get the idea. I love it soooooooooooooo much.

It has a 3 stall garage that is already insulated and sheetrocked the basement is finished with a huge family room with slate tile fireplace. It also has 3 bedrooms and 2 bath plus a lovely mudhole for a yard. I shall be debt till I am 100 for buying this house.....sorry kids there goes your college funds.

Well it has been a week that is for sure. Thank you all for checking in and for the prayers it means alot.

I am going to get up on my soap box for a minute here and tell all my female readers that your health is something that is very important most of us are mommas, wives, sisters & daughters we tend to put ourselves last.

You need to know that can be a very dangerous thing. My friend Toni who passed away was diagnosed and died from cancer all within 15 days.

Can you imagine that 15 days....there were some warning signs like the serious weight loss and you all know that after 25 losing weight is like chiseling concrete off your ass that fat just wants to hang out and spend its golden years with your butt cheeks. Toni lost almost a 100 lbs in a year doing NOTHING....ladies it may sound like a miracle but it is not. She also complained of no appetite and abdominal pain all something we experience but if it lasts longer than a week or so go see your doctor.

Toni's pathology reports came back on monday during the palliative care conference and the results were unbelieveable. The specemins were sent to the Mayo Clinic in Rochester, MN and came back she had 3 different kinds of cancer. 3 KINDS!!! 2 different types of Ovarian and Pancreatic Cancer.

God Speed Sexy Mama I will miss you

*You see the chin tilt that was her thing doesn't she look proud?

I guess God had big plans for her and was hedging his bets. I do not know what else to think

I promise that I will post soon maybe even today after the funeral. Thank you all for the prayers and well wishes.

Love,

Melissa